Ok so I know like Lindsey said it is the first day of the rest of his life and I also know that I am suppose to be happy and so excited that Austin is growing up and starting school but I have to tell you that this has not been the easiest thing to deal with. I have cried over it many times. It seems like he was just a baby yesterday and now he is all grown up and going to school. I am so proud of how brave Austin has been. He loves school and has wanted me to drop him off after one visit. He obviously doesn’t need me and I am glad that he is prepared to go on his own but my heart is being broken apart. I know he will do great but it makes me sad that I will see him less and less every year from here on out. It really makes me think about the time I spend with my kids. Life really is too short. I need to hold on to every minute because before I know it my kids will be all grown up and gone.
When I picked Austin up I ask him what he did today and all he could tell me was that he couldn’t remember.But as the day went on he told me a few things he did do during the day. One of the funnies things he said was; my teacher said: “We are not suppose to say, TEACHER, TEACHER, TEACHER, we are suppose to raise our hand and wait to be called on”. After hearing this I hoped that Mrs. Jessee was just letting the kids know how to talk to her and that Austin didn’t do this. :-/But I am almost sure that that is probably not true and Austin was probably showing all the kids how not to talk to the teacher. I guess we all have to learn, right?
So I am not sure why this is bothering me so bad but it is. I look at everyone's blog often and try to comment when ever I can but there are hardly ever any comments on my blog. It always seems that I hear that a lot of people have seen my blog and they comment to me in person but no one comments on my blog and for some reason it is really eating on me. So... I am going to not worry about bloging any more. If I get a second I will (which very rarely happens)if not, I am not even going to look at anyone's blog so I don't have to feel sad that mine is the only one with out comments. I guess I should just be happy that people are looking at mine but like I said it is eating on me. So I am done until I can build up some more "whatever it is I need to build up" and not feel like every time I blog I am sad because no one cares to comment on mine. Sorry to you faithful lookers. I hope I will be back sometime but as of right now we will just have to see.
Ok, so I read over Melissa Halls blog recently and realized that I have not participate in any of the Tags and felt a little guilty and decided I would take my turn and post about this Tag, since I enjoyed reading Melissa’s so much. So here it is 8 random facts about me.
1.I get really car sick. I grew up in a town where the only way out and in was on very winding roads and I could never leave and go on a trip without getting sick (I had/got to puke every single time). I can even get sick on the freeway.To this day on a long car trip if I am not driving most of the time I get at least sick to my stomach, if not more.
2.I hate car washes. I don’t know why I have this phobia but I really, really, really, hate car washes. I don’t consider myself claustrophobic but I have often wondered if this could be part of my problem. I can’t stand the sound of the wash or the idea that I am trapped inside of my car and can’t get out. This also explains why my new car was not washed for over a year if anyone was wondering and FYI I washed it in my lawn when it did finally get washed. :0)
3.I love kids and have always felt that I have a special connection with them. From early on I just loved to baby sit. I am sure some of this is because my youngest sister is 11 years younger than me and I loved to baby her when she was young. I have loved to watch/take care of kids ever since. It gives me so much joy in getting a child to smile at me, trust me, and like me.
4.I often feel very inadequate and often left out. This is kind of a two part thing. The inadequate part I don’t know how to really explain. It just seems a lot of the time I just can’t do everything I need or want to do and so I feel very inadequate. The being left out part I have finally figured out though. I don’t know why it is but it seems that every 4 to 6 weeks it all the sudden hits me that if I have not had an friend time with anyone that there must be something wrong with me and that people must not care and on and on. But it takes about a week and I began to see that it is all in my head and I move forward with life and it always gets better. I hope someday to overcome both of these challenges in my life.
5.I will never drive a van ever again. When Brian and I got married he drove a full size van with a wheel chair lift in it and by the time we got rid of that thing it was fully decide in my head that I would not ever drive a van again. I have always loved SUV’s but after having the van I swore I would never drive one again and now that I have my Pathfinder there is really no way in this world I would go back. (Now for everyone that drives a van, because a lot of my friends do, Please don’t take any offence I have nothing against the fact that you drive a van it is just that I personally can’t do it).
6.I like to clean other people’s houses. I don’t know why but it is almost like a treasure hunt to me when I clean for people. I love to see how people arrange furniture and there things and how they decorate and I love to help organize for people. I know it is strange but when I cleaned for people in the past it was a really enjoyable thing for me.
7.I love to serve others and help anyone in need and another part of this is that I love to hold party/events at my home to do this (I love to organize an event and then have it all come together and see everyone having a blast). If I know that someone is in need it is very hard for me to just sit at home. I know in my heart that there is always something more I can do. And so one of my joys in life is to help others out
8.I don’t know what I will do when I grow up. I use to think I wanted to be a registered nurse when I grew up until I was a CNA and a TECK through LDSH and I learned really quickly that I loved the people and didn’t mind helping them with their needs but it sure got old doing the crap work and not getting much credit for it. So when I grow up I am not sure what I will be. I know I want to help people but, I am just not sure how I will do it. Maybe someday I will figure it out but for now I will just be a MOM. (which is enough work in it self)
I decided to get some pictures of my brother and his family before they moved to California. For a family that really doesn't like to smile for the camera I thought this was an amazing picture. The dogs even looked! I took Alexis and Ryan to the airport on Thursday and Kevin and my parents and sister Stephanie left on Friday for the long drive with a trailer. In preparation for them leaving I spent a ton of time watching my nephew Ryan and helping Kevin and Alexis clean up their place. It was nice to spend the time with them but in the end I think it made it twice as hard when they left. We are really going to miss them. I wish they didn't have to go so far away. I hope we can get out there to see them soon. Good luck guys, we love you!
I know it has been 18 days since the 4th of July has been over but, I still wanted to post about the fun time we had. It was Ashlynn's first 4th of July and she just loved the noise and the lights. I was very surprised. Brooklynn on the other hand didn't want anything to do with the sparklers and stayed clear of all fireworks except for the poppers. Austin wanted to be in the middle of it all and he was. :) This year we all got together at our house and had cake and ice cream for my mom's Birthday. Every year she has to share her birthday with the 4th and we just want to make sure she knows she is extra special too. So Happy Birthday Mom!
